I really wish feelings could follow simpler logic
Even when you mean to throw your words out gently, sometimes they still turn into hurt
At the very least, what happened today was unpleasant
In the days ahead I need to learn to cherish
Cherish the people I love and the people who love me
Never hurt them — never, ever

For the things you want, you should chase them with everything your life has
For the things you’ve gained, you should tend them with every bit of your heart
May everyone cherish the people who appear in their lives
Send them a blessing from the bottom of your heart
Sometimes something simple is already enough

I should be a decisive, exacting director
Shouting “cut” loudly at the eight or nine times out of ten life goes wrong
Or be a willful, unruly drifter
Shouting “fuck it” at the crowd whenever I’m unhappy
But in the end these are nothing but shouting into the void
After the shouting fades, the mood and the life still have to be slowly cleaned up
My wish is simple
To keep some tension alive even within the plainness
Is a life like that really impossible?
Everything still has to move slowly
As slow as a lover’s gentle hand plucking a flower
As slow as moonlight and cherry blossoms drifting down in the night

It’s getting colder
Today when I got up, breakfast was already gone
My hands and feet were cold too
And then something else came along to make me unhappy
State of mind really does affect the body
Learning to face things calmly is what I need most
Mixing a cup of oatmeal, sitting at the computer, chatting about nothing in the group
I don’t know how to respond to everyone’s comfort
Like an uncivilized child listening to a lecture
But at least there are things I’ve finally come to understand
Writing this entry to record whatever feelings I can still capture
Hoping life won’t depreciate like a stock

Watching the steam rise off the oatmeal like thick ink, my heart actually warmed
And so, there is hope after all