Eternity.

Finals are finally over, and I got brutally worked over by four math exams. The blow wasn’t small, and in this moment of extreme dejection and exhaustion, I actually found myself thinking about eternity again! Solve one class of equations, and there’s still the second class, the third class… Intel’s CPUs got slower, so there came 65nm, then 45nm, then 32nm… A rocket launches as No. 1, and there will be No. 2, No. 3, No. 4, one after another… Roads get dug up and paved, paved and dug up again, over and over… Buildings get demolished, and then thousands more rise up. We sprint through a world that has no eternity, chasing after a faint, illusory “eternity.”

Thinking it over, eternity is a rather terrifying thing. When you hope for love to be eternal, you end up burying the happiness you should have had, focusing instead on possession and proof; when you long for life to be eternal, you cast aside the joy of the present moment to go searching for the secret of immortality. And when our society indulges single-mindedly in the “eternity” of development, prosperity, and harmony, what do we lose in the process? I suspect those “nail households” who blocked the government from seizing their land, and then mysteriously vanished, might just be one of the small “moves” humanity decisively makes in service of the “eternity” of development.

Very few people can truly see through eternity. At least, I cannot.